Faith. Prayer. and Love.

HARD!
That is the only way I can describe my month so far.

There have been some happy moments.
There have been some sad moments.
There have been some beautiful moments.
and there have been moments where I just didn't feel like I could go on.

But I have noticed that no matter how much I talk to family and friends... The only peace I receive, even if answers aren't very clear. Is when I pray to my Heavenly Father.
What an amazing Heavenly Father He is. Really! Here I am struggling with a break-up and He takes time to answer my prayers, to send someone to let me know they are proud of me, to allow me the knowledge and power to write down my thoughts and feelings and send them out into the universe. Whether they reach someone or not. They are out there to read. They are out there to absorb. They are out there to heal hearts. Even though it might not be mine at the moment... Maybe someday it will be.

My heart will be healed again one day, and I look forward to that day because this ache that I feel at the end of each day is... really just hard. I got an answer that I need to be happy right now... and when I have this ache in my heart... it can really make it difficult.


I will try though, because I am not a quitter.
I am a Daughter of God.
I have legions of angels on my side.
Rooting for me. Cheering me on. and Praying for me.
Whether here on earth or on the other side of the veil.
I am in the refiner's fire right now and well... It sucks.
"I never said it would be easy... I only said it would be worth it."
How true those words are... especially now.

Well, Heavenly Father, here is to you. The master of my world. The one that has everything in His hands, because I have given up my will and allowed you to work the plan that you have. And I know it is a good one too. :)

I love my Heavenly Father and I will do whatever He asks me, because at the end of the day. It is Him that I have to answer to. Literally.


.... What a scary thought ...

 And the fact that I LOVE HIM and my Savior with Every FIBER OF MY BEING!

What a fitting song to listen to now.

"The best is yet to come. You think you've seen the sun, but you aint seen it shine.... Wait till you see that sunshinin' day."


"The best is yet to come..." and the day I am kneeling at that altar with my eternal companion will be... truly amazing. Because I will have worked and grown specifically for Him. Whoever he is.


I love my life. I love my life. How true those words are... I really do love my life and I would NOT trade it for anything because this is one heck of a romance novel if you ask me! :) haha I am living a Hallmark/Romance novel/movie. And I am LOVING IT! :)   *Side note: Not that I enjoy hurting people for the sake of a good plot.... I would never do that "just because..." Okay... Read on:)

**Sorry for the back and forth on the emotions... I'll blame it on the music."